I love Bebo!

On the way to Bwindi (very close to the Congo border) I took a lot of silent alone time to really feel out why I am here. To figure out the reason God brought me here, not in a negative sense like why in the world would God bring me to Africa but more like I wonder why he would bring me here, what is he trying to teach or show me? I was listening to my ipod to Bebo Norman and a few songs really jumped out and spoke to me about the closeness of God when I feel like I'm one in a million people in Africa. One of the things I've concluded that God is trying to show me in an intense but intimate way that he is so close. More than ever I am learning how much involved God is in my everyday life. This weekend, which I will blog more about later, I fed a wild monkey and built a mud hut with pigmies, I lived in the impenitrable forest where gorilla's are a common sight. I could throw a rock from Uganda to the Congo and had to be careful at night because the Congo is very dangerous right now and there are Congolese rebels all around. Yet, I found God in all those areas. I saw a different and more alive aspect of the God who protected me and let me have my favorite weekend so far. God is as big as the forest but as small as the mosquito who bit my foot. He is as gentle as the breeze or as intense as the afternoon sun. God is big but so close. He is mine and I get to live that every day knowing I have a relationship with a God who made it all!


DRIFTING
Some say home is where the heart is
And my heart is in your hands
You are all I need

Rising from the ashes
Lifting from the madness
Now you see my heart is
Deep enough to dream
Heal me from the deathblow
Lead and I will follow
Now you feel my heart glow
Mending at the seams

Sometimes when I'm all alone
I don't know if I can
Take another breath
Some say home is where the heart is
Tell me where my home is
'Cause I'm scared to death

Falling from the rooftop
Crashing like a raindrop
Can you make my heart stop
Shaking like a leaf
Standing at the floodgate
Steady as an earthquake
Can you hear my heart break
Tearing at the seams

I am drifting in the deep end
Holding on to your hand
Is all that saves me now
Life can treat you like a beggar
You hold me together
But I don't know how

Falling from the rooftop
Crashing like a raindrop
Can you make my heart stop
Shaking like a leaf
Standing at the floodgate
Steady as an earthquake
Can you hear my heart break
Tearing at the seams

SOLDIER
Remember the time when i thought of letting go
and taking back my hand
when all i could think was how long can i follow you
and where do I stand in this world
I lost my faith, my reason to believe
when I refused to see
oh Lord, you carried me

And just like a soldier
you battle for my soul
but more like a father
you come and take me home

What is the worth of a man living for himself
with a heart of his own
and every day goes in and out, still without a sign of life
but Father wont you please give me more
when everything is closing in on me
I know you set me free the day you died for me

And just like a soldier
you battle for my soul
but more like a father
you come and take me home

And who is this man who calls me by name
and covers himself with all of my shame
but not even death could make you surrender
I remember

And just like a soldier
you battle for my soul
but more like a father
you come and take me home